Well, I decided to go to the funeral on Saturday. I would have felt too guilty for not going. Unfortunately, I did get a glimpse of my Aunt when I wne tup to put the flowers by the casket. It wasn’t closed yet. So I kept my kids out of the main room until it was closed. Actually, I kept all of us way in the back for the whole thing. After the service (when the casket was closed) we went up and looked at the picture boards. There were so many people there that kept coming up and hugging me that I knew but couldn’t process who they were. We went to the reception at the church afterwards but didn’t stay too long. I got a copy of The Bee with the obit in it. It also had some letters from her co-workers at the paper that made me cry as I read them, guess it’s good that Joe was driving. I just kind of laid on the couch the rest of the day.
We got the funeral done with… but we still have to bury her at a later date. So I guess it’s not totally over. Of course there is so much more our family will have to face in the coming months and maybe even years. My cousin is still in the ICU but everyone is saying that she will be moved to a regular room within the week. So that’s great, she’s going to be changed inside and out forvever but at least she is still here with us. The harder part I think will be having to relive everything thru the course of the trial, especially for my cousin. So, there is really no end in sight right now. Jackass hasn’t even been arrainged because he’s still hospitalized. So it really could be months… my cousin could be out of the hospital and trying to rebuild her life and then this whole thing could basically start over. I just hope that the DA gets the statements he needs from her and then just lets her be. Her Dad is going to take her back to FL with him away from everything here. And while I will miss being able to see her I think it will be better for her to be as far away from everything here as she can be. Plus, like I told the kids… maybe we’ll finally take a real vacation.
