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So today I finally put the consents in the mail to donate our remaining three embryos to scientific research.  I was in tears over it last night when I was sealing the envelope.  We’ve had them in cryo preservation for 2 years now because I didn’t want to give them up.  In April (about 2 weeks after the twins turned 1) I had a D&C and ablation which has rendered me unable to have any more children.  I was in denial about that for several months too.  I think in June the clinic sent a letter saying we had to either move the embryos to a long-term storage facility or choose one of the other options available.  We could have donated them to another couple but I just couldn’t stand the idea of someone else having my babies.  The other option was to drive to Green Bay and they would give them to me in a little paper straw…. sick, right??  So I had to accept that I couldn’t carry them and that left only one option to be had.  So my tiny 5-day old would-be babies are on their way to La Jolla, CA to the The Stem Cell Resource.  I’m sad about it but also kind of glad that the decision is done.  I hope they will help to save a life (or many lives).  It’s funny that when we first started the whole in-vitro process we were so sure that we would donate the remaining eggs, sperm, embryos to science.  We checked that option on the intial paperwork without a moments hesitation.  But after see what those microscopic little guys could become (running around my living room) it was far harder to just let them go.  Don’t get me wrong – I’m still pro-choice, I think a woman should have 100% control over her own body.  But I think it’s safe to say that I would personally not exercise certain options.  This decision was very hard for me and I felt choceless… but I think in the end it was the best possible choice for me.